I know that mothers day is supposed to be about celebrating moms but I have been thinking lately about what it means to me to be a mother and what my job really is.
So this mothers day I wanted to share with the world an open letter for my children.
|I Love You (ASL)|
You are my world. Each of you have been given to me as a tremendous blessing. There is nothing else I would ever want to do with my life and nothing I am more proud of than being your mom.
Each day that I spend with you I learn more about you and the characters that God has created you with and to be. You change so much all of the time and as you learn and grow you are teaching me more about myself and about God.
You fill my life with so much joy. But you also make me crazy. You test my patience more than I ever thought was possible. Sometimes it feels like you are teaming up and trying to make me go bald from pulling out my hair. There are times that it feels like I can never do anything right but they are out numbered tenfold by the times that you make me feel like I could do no wrong in your eyes.
I know that there will be times in our lives together when you will feel like I don't love you. Times when you feel like I am being unfair and unkind. But I pray that you will remember that we discipline because we love you. We only want the best for you and we pray blessings over you everyday. So, I hope, that when those times come when you feel like you hate me and that we will never see eye to eye, that you will at least remember that I love you and will continue to love you no matter what you do.
You will make mistakes. You will hurt my feelings and I will hurt yours. We will misunderstand each other and sometimes we will understand each other but not agree. But being your mom is the greatest joy and blessing and I want you to know beyond a shadow of a doubt, that you can never make me stop loving you.
I know that the choices that you make in your life are yours to make. You will have to live with the consequences of your actions and only you will be judged for them. I want you to know that I know I am not your judge, I will do everything I can to teach you the path of the righteous but in the end it is you who will choose which way you will go.
I will keep loving you when we fight, when we yell and when we make up.
I will love you even if you get piercings, tattoos, or have any kind of crazy hair (its just hair, I may have crazy hair right along side of you).
I will continue to love you if you fail in school, don't do your homework, or get called into the principals office.
My love is still there if you sneak out of the house, if you drink, smoke, or do drugs.
I will not stop loving you if you choose to be straight or homosexual.
I will continue to love you if you have sex before marriage or if you abstain until you are married.
I will continue to love you when you have a baby, married or not.
My love for you wont disappear when you parent your kids in a strange way I don't understand or agree with.
My love will not go away if you walk away from God.
I may not agree with what you do, where you go with your life and how you act, but there is nothing you could do that would make me ever stop loving you. I am your mom and that means you have my heart, you carry it in your heart.
I tell you this because I know that I am not the best parent in the world. I know that I am a flawed human being. I know that our Father in heaven is the best dad there is, and that his children make horrible decisions, just look at how corrupt and hurtful people from the church can be. I know that that heavenly father is the best there is, and his children, even though they try, are often not like him, they are not perfect.
So, I, your not perfect mother, just want you to know that I love you as much as I possibly can, more than I ever knew was possible and until the day that I die and beyond.
But I also want you to know that as much as I love you, your Heavenly Father loves you more. There are people who would want you to believe that there are mistakes that you can make that will make God stop loving you. They are absolutely wrong. There is nothing you can do that can separate you from His love.
God has given us choices, he allows us to make mistakes. And just like me, watching you make those mistakes hurts him. The sins that we commit hurt him, hurt you, and distance you from God because he cannot be close to your sin. But that does not ever make his love leave you. I pray that you will always know that and be able to stand up to the lies of the enemy and of the people around you, that try to hurt people with those lies.
Because there are those people, the ones that think they can judge others and their sins. People that believe that they can hurt people and make them feel small because they think that the sins that they commit are less bad than your sins. They are wrong, no sin is bigger than another and all sin hurts us because of keeping us from God (But not keeping us from his love).
So know these truths and never let go of them, share them with those that are hurting because of the lies people tell.
For the Lord your God is living among you.
He is a mighty savior.
He will take delight in you with gladness.
With his love, he will calm all your fears.
He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.
The faithful love of the Lord never ends!
His mercies never cease.
Great is his faithfulness;
his mercies begin afresh each morning.
God showed how much he loved us by sending his one and only Son into the world so that we might have eternal life through him. This is real love—not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.
1 John 4:9-10
I love you Kiddos. Always have always will.